Day 20 - September 16, 2009

It's interesting how motivation works for me: if things are going well, I'm more motivated to keep going. But if things don't turn out the way I'd hoped or planned, then instead of trying harder, I want to give up.

Motivation is low today: I didn't lose any weight yesterday to today. I'm sure that sounds normal, but I weigh myself every day to make sure I'm not gaining weight, and today I weigh the same as yesterday. And since I've started my diet and exercise, I've lost weight every day, if only just a half of a pound each day. So, yeah, I'm bummed today, especially when yesterday I finally ate all that I'm supposed to, whereas all the other days I've been way under my caloric guidelines. Maybe all the calculators in the world are wrong, and I'm not supposed to eat more than 1400 calories a day. That just seems very low to start with.

Or maybe I just need to up my exercise. Maybe walking 3.5mph for almost 45 minutes a day isn't enough.

Or it could just be a day where I didn't lose anything and I'll lose some today. Whatever the cause for my lack of loss of weight, I'll have to work hard today to keep going.

9:00 AM Kirkland Signature weight loss shake

12:00 PM 1/2 cup low fat cottage cheese

1:00 PM 1 Bartlett pear

6:20 PM Spicy Yellow Fin Tuna with crispy eggplant, chili aioli and sweet soy glaze (5 pieces)

In general: 15oz of water

Just before my first walk of the day, my right knee started hurting, like it needs to pop, but could also go out on me. Just walking around my building, I feel the need to favor it. With the lack of weight loss yesterday, I will be crushed if I can't walk for my exercise today.

14 minutes of walking at 3.4mph

Walking my usual route didn't hurt my knee as much as walking in my building does. Strange. And it really hurts when I'm sitting at my desk and it's bent at almost a 90 degree angle, but it also hurts if I keep it straight. Hmmm... I may not get to walk at lunch: I have a business and personal errand to run.

I did not take my usual walk this afternoon. My right knee is still bothering me, and for some really stupid reason, I don't have any acetaminophen on me. I don't want to injure it, so I'm going to take it easy for the rest of the day. Amazing how my energy level/emotions drop when I'm not able to walk as much as I'm now accustomed to. Guessing I'm not going to see a big weight drop either this week. I've also not had a lot of water to drink. Not feeling thirsty, but I'll make sure to reach my 60oz goal before I turn in for the night.